In the Nursing Home

I'm not here to talk to these nurses making annoying noises outside my room.  They sound so unappealing..

No one has listened for weeks of bad living.  They think I should listen to them.  Ghey.  I'm not here for that.  I'm going home.

What happened?

Apparently, I'm "not the one," anymore, "to some people."

I look fat and asymmetrical.

Not Living for Others's Whims

People, for instance young people like me in Cleveland, are complaining about why they were forced to make mediocre choices they made in the past that they just easily perpetuate but need to alter, with the use of their focus and outside resources.

Why should I suffer their badmouthing for the choices they made and further when I didn't do it and would have liked to help them make it right if they weren't so racist and would trust me and listen to me.  Why should it affect the way my body is failing to live by their creed, as though I deserve to die?  Anyway, how could I ever feel so bad physically from being stressed and challenged for hocus pocus reasons?  I'm not stressing over annoying things for others, others who do this being up to no good.  I could be living my life, on my own or with others of basically any ages.

😶‍🌫 "I'm a good girl, I am!"

I feel the people monitoring me in private must just be sitting there asking me to complain about Andre Rieu while making it worse for me saying it's him when it's not.

"Kids Raising Kids"

My life seems totally unfair.

I wasn't allowed to have fun conversing with people my age when I came home from college around 2007 until my parents died.

Now, I'm being watched by people who seem like the same style generation as people from my generation are overall.

I'm being watched, and I can't enjoy life regarding what generation people are and if I'm ever alone.  I feel I'm not living a comfortable life even conducive to a future and being kept from my parental generation regarding being "experimented on."

Men Born Around 1950 Today

I get that Early Generation X and my generation, Generation XY, complain to me in a threatening way when I don't.  Then, I guess pops in "the voice of reason," which is at least spoken for Early Baby Boomer women, wanting to say to just throw out people who seem sad who didn't get enough attention like me, from Generation XY, maybe to make way for even younger generations to seem to wanna "participate" in their world more and be treated like they're better.

I'm not here to be slammed just because my dad is younger than people born in the early 1940s or mid 1940s, just that simple fact, and then you say you're gonna start using your resources and comforts to lay back and start bringing up excuses and including how my life is supposed to be miserable and yours isn't.  They are not all supposed to be short and fat with people from long ago being more together, tall and slender.  If any are attractive does not make it so you can pick and choose over all others.  None of you are just "better" and need to "keep your hands to yourselves."  You even skip that generation and say the ones born in the late 1950s are the best men and the only way to be.

Evolution of Generation XY

I get annoyed when people chime in something they all agree on, like if you say it you're tacky and retarded.

My mom/parents did light up at the idea of homeschool after I'd been through many.

I must say I was cuter and more together on my 3rd birthday, but it was as though other kids had more opportunities to have to together in public or in a social setting without their parents.  I think it's things like this that really determines how things are going to go for me.  There's not really much else to say.  Maybe though, my preschool in Broward County was even better than the schools in Duval County, Palm Beach County, Saint Johns County, and Saint Tammany Parish, up until 18.  I finally learned to stay home to get better, but the food was bad and I had a hard time exercising and setting up my room, finding transportation successfully...  I didn't have my own room with my craft kits or whatever set up, neither, but I had my family and paper and pencil.  I wasn't in "dance," so I didn't have fun just doing gymnastics classes and once a week sometimes ballet, when allowed.  It is a big thing that dance is over and life is about helping people my age who are behind mentally and socially.  Boys did sports.  Now, it's all about Baby Boomers who accomplished in something specific, not just like Generation X and dance.  If Generation Y did bad, they just weren't ready.  Generation Z was disrespectful to the ways of Generation X, some of whom were their parents supposedly ultimately over Generation X, and Generation Z was bad.  Generation A didn't have a chance, much like some people in Generation X.  We sorta ignore the world and its ways, at least they have to all the time and they have their own parental generation and others living who support them, like other previous generations.  If this is all too much for you, why even look in?  Like when it went thru that bad people can like good things of accomplishment more often, so this.  Bad does not mean cool, and good does not mean uncool.

Super-Charged and "Ambitious"

I did have something to say, about being monitored in private.

My parents wouldn't have liked this.  They passed on.  See, I'm not just some trash person.  Only my younger brother would really care enough to have an opinion, and he's barely talking to me, now, and never did a lot.

I know I'm just another person as everyone, but I realized I was no less.  People don't know when to blame a person for their issues or not.  A poor person cannot be blamed for being bitter or looking as though in pain or giving a poor performance in an activity.  Likewise, a lady born in 1961 is admitted to be spoiled by the world and to have eaten better food from the commercial world and often with an abundance/surplus of nutrition and "good eats."  I guess things changed, such as the farming world disappeared and parents, especially the mom, were at home less.  Kids are better off with "stay at home moms," though some may suffer when they leave home and find others are not accepting of how they're used to more comforts, like the ones with busy moms.  I personally liked my parents busy, but my life was more unfair after I left home, regarding opportunity.  My mom did not cook a lot, but our food was sorta healthy but not always very tasty all my years until 18.  I didn't get to pick what I ate nor liked it a whole lot.  I'd say my childhood was stable but not much fun regarding activities.

I think Baby Boomers have enough pleasure compared to others as they say, though everyone should have more.  They may not realize how bad younger people have it.  "No child left behind?"  The problem is they act like they are available and do or will do all this stuff for us in a timely manner, but in my case they are doing it for each other.